We don't seem to be as free to make bad choices as those who harm us with theirs.
We are free to Havisham the clocks at grief’s apogee, flit through cobweb clotted rooms, past desiccated feasts, by moldy vermin-tunneled cakes, and empty our lives into dusty bitterness, but only by ignoring sotto voiced approbations from friends, family, and loved ones. They note—with sad regret—we are “failing to move on.”
No one seems to note—with regret—the jilting fiancé, the leaving partner, the unfaithful spouse. The betrayers receive one-line mention hidden in mounds of detail about the bitterly time-frozen Havishams of life.
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I note- with regret- all of your betrayers.
I am reminded of having to choose between being pitiful or powerful(and not being able to be both.) I pray that you will submit to God's desire for you to choose the later.
Failure to forgive is to doom yourself to be a victim. You have never seemed the victim type to me.
Ephesians 4:25-32 Luke 17
Thanks,
Read your comment, read the passages, been thinking about what you said.
i think we are just as free to make bad choices as anyone. but people who don't make bad decisions do that because they don't want to.
as for other people noting the betrail of others as your own "failing to move on," should it really matter what they think? YOU know it's not your failure, right? that should, ideally, be enough. of course we don't live in an ideal world, largely because there are people like those who have betrayed you, i suppose. those 'betrayers' might only 'receive one-line mention' in someone else's book, but they get their justice in your book, don't they? and isn't your book the one that's supposed to matter the most?
(i'm sorry that my train of thought might not be that clear. i was never the best at putting thoughts to words... T^T)
You are right. What people think I'm doing is not as important as what I'm actually doing. In fact, I have little influence over what others think and a full plate trying to actually do the right thing, so I should concentrate my energies there.
It's a shame how many great memories it takes to soothe one bad one. There are many people out there who believe in you. Some you wouldn't expect. But we're here.
Sometimes, maybe, you have to stare into the darkness for a while to know it for what it is and that knowledge enables you to choose the light.
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